Monday, October 30, 2017
My train of thought changes a lot between yesterday and today….
I am compromised.
I always had a high opinion of… well, my opinion. I thought that I could see an event, a story on its whole and always reach to the correct conclusion and feel OK with myself. One of the reasons I stood so firmly in my opinion that Johnny Depp was innocent was that I was not a fan of his. My liking his work didn’t cloud my judgement because I hadn’t followed his work; I didn’t find him attractive.
So when this morning I woke up to the news that «Kevin Spacey tried to seduce a 14 year old boy» was a hit. Because I do like Kevin Spacey, because I am a fan, because I do find him attractive. And that has been the case since I was a teen.
So what gives?
I tried to find excuses. First, the story is from 31 years ago. Not exactly news. That would help so much to shove it under the rug.
Then I remembered all the rumours that I didn’t want to believe. I remembered defending and supporting him because they were rumours. Apparently though they weren’t rumours.
Truth be told, I never cared about his sexual orientation. I -most of the times- project and consider celebs to be as uninterested in sex as I am. Which, yeah… big-time-projection. Which he helped with his protection of his personal life.
Then I read his tweet. Again, I thought it was an extremely brave thing to do. He apologised. I remember reading an interview of his some 15 years ago (already about a decade old) where he had talked about drugs and alcohol. So, yeah I believe he was drunk. I can believe he was high too. But, he apologised and it’s more than most people do nowadays. See President Trump, for example.
Sex and drugs and scandals is what Hollywood was built on. Nothing new here. Only, this time is a favourite actor of mine. And I am as much disillusioned as much as I don’t want to believe he’s a sexual predator. Then I read Antony Rapp’s telling of the event. (The fact it’s on Buzzfeed doesn’t help, because quite frankly I hate buzzfeed), and…. I don’t know if it’s just as honest as Spacey’s tweet. Again, I question the victim for reasons I don’t understand. I can’t understand what he has to earn by making this public now. Is it to earn something? Or is it to find an inner peace? Or…? Or…?
I end up with the conclusion I don’t care what happened 31 years ago. Which makes me feel disgusted with myself. However, I can’t change that. Even now, for some reason, I find Spacey’s tweet more honest than the Rapp buzzfeed interview. Something is wrong with me, most probably. I permit other cases, I permit personal likes, I permit emotional attachment to a favourite actor cloud my judgement.
I don’t like it.
But, there’s nothing I can do about it.
What makes my reaction worse for me is that if more people come out saying they were assaulted by Kevin Spacey, I will be forced to change my mind. I will be forced to accept reality. I hope there won’t be more people coming out. It doesn’t change what happened to Mr. Rapp in any way, but I do hope I can still keep some semblance of my previous affection to Kevin Spacey as a human being. It will be about me, it’s what I’m saying. And I hate the fact I make this case about me and my feelings.
And it is about him as a human being. As an actor he’s as good today as he was yesterday and that is not going to change if 100 people come out accusing him. As an actor, he’s great.
What about a human being?
And even more important? What about me? What kind of human being am I? Am I as selfish and insensitive to think of my own feelings more than those of an alleged victim? I sure am. It comes in contrast with what I believed about myself.
Just another thing I need to work with myself. I recognise I am part of the problem.
All in all, American Beauty is still one of my favourite movies and Verbal Kint one of the best characters in cinema; except, today character and actor seem awfully similar.
So today, there is news: House of Cards will run its last season next year (is it cancelled? would it have been the last season either way? news are not particularly clear. Of course, netflix will use the accusation to make itself look «good«. See? They don’t support a pedophile!!! Good people, all around. And, International Emmys tweeted their decision to not honour Kevin Spacey as the plan was because of the «recent events». By recent event, they mean something that took place 31 years ago. Because they are «good» people too. I would guess.
And I’m somewhere between being depressed and being angry.
Hollywood made me love this man for his talent, for his charisma, for he seemed to be a genuinely «good» person whose foundation helped young creative minds. Everyone loved him, everyone praised him, everyone was his friend. And all it took was one public accusation of an event from 31 years ago to throw him to the wolves.
There isn’t much to think. He either didn’t do it or he did do it. And for the sake of this article, I’ll go with the alleged sexual advance to a 14 year old teenager being 100% truth, drunk or not, I don’t care. And for about 50% of the rumours I’ve read through the years being true, as well.
How on Earth didn’t they know? How on Earth am I supposed to believe they didn’t know. How on Earth am I supposed to believe that not all of them are the same as Kevin Spacey is accused to be? If I am to believe -like they did- that he made a sexual advance to a 14 year old kid so easily I also have to believe they all knew. They are all as guilty as he is. So, not good person comes out of it, no matter how much they try to distance themselves from him.
Hollywood seems too eager to get rid of a man who was one of its favourite sons just a few days ago. Hey, don’t touch, it burns. Everyone has or knows a story. But the only one responsible is Kevin Spacey. As if in 1986, Kevin Spacey was a huge name no one could touch. If you can touch him today and throw him to the rubbish can why couldn’t they do it 30 years ago? 25 years ago?
If Kevin Spacey is so bad, so is about 98% of Hollywood and isolating him now that he’s down is crocodilian tears; it’s hypocrisy, it’s fake…. it’s saving their own butts that may be worse than Spacey and Weistein (again, assuming everything said about him is true) put together.
The «system» is not Kevin Spacey; everyone can tell by the way they delete him so easily.
Some of us use movies as more than 2 hours of entertainment. For some of us, these people are inspiration, are a push to try harder, to create better, to reach certain goals. For some of us, Kevin Spacey’s work has saved our lives when we were down and felt numb and lost. And it is too much to put on one man whom we don’t know, but Hollywood helped dramatically at it. It still helps; it still creates role models and inspirational icons.
So, screw you, Hollywood!
If it’s true:
I will blame Kevin Spacey & with him, I will blame the kid’s parents, I will blame drugs and alcohol, I will blame those who were at the party. Because Kevin Spacey alone isn’t the system. And he sure wasn’t the «system» when he was 26 years old and no one really knew him outside of Broadway.
Making a pass at a 14 year old boy is disgusting.
It’s not pedophilia. It’s not rape. It is statutory rape if you have sex with a person of that age. It is rape if you rape them.
Basically, so far we could have statutory rape that didn’t happen because the kid got up and left on his own. But, what was the intention?
It’s disgusting as it is (if it’s true, but I guess we will never know, will we?), no need to add «pedophilia» in it to make it somehow bigger, dear social media.
I may be adding to this post as more come to light. But I’m not sure I will write another entry for this matter. I’m sad, I’m angry, I’m disappointed by many including myself.
Or you can always read my previous entries about «innocent until proven guilty». about «scapegoats» or «trials by media». They fit in this case too, except for the details.
The presumption of innocence is still a thing in the civilised world.
Wednesday, November 1, 2017
I’m constantly going between OK he’s guilty (to being attracted to a 14 year old) to maybe he isn’t? To what exactly is he guilty of? To the rumours that he’s coming a bit too hard to the men he’s attracted to? To be sexually attracted to minors? So far, and to my knowledge no criminal act has taken place.
Morality wise? Hey! It’s Hollywood!
I will accept that Kevin Spacey is guilty. Let’s hang him for all I care. I’ve lost my apetite (and let me tell you, with my eating disorder, it is not good for my health) since I’ve read about the news. Because he was an inspiration, he was someone who managed to succeed when all odds were against him. In the grant scheme of things, my broken heart doesn’t matter.
What it does matter in my humble opinion are two things.
1. Say Spacey is guilty ok? He could deny the event because there was no evidence. It happened 30+ years ago. There’s no evidence. Also, there was no physical harm done so even if there was an investigation back then there would be no evidence. But, I take his statement as an admission that it might have happened. What if he had denied it? What if he was innocent? What if it was an accident and the years passed had turned something innocent into something illegal (having sex with a minor is statutory rape, even if the minor agrees to it, and I’m not even certain what the age of consent for gay men was in the mid 80s).
But let’s keep Spacey out of it for a while. How does an innocent person defends themselves against an accusation of this kind for an event that took place 30 years ago? Is everyone guilty by default? Do they protect themselves with a defamation lawsuit? Wouldn’t that be considered «victim-shaming»? At that point is one person’s against other people’s word and the moment someone is accused, they are fair game in social media. Their side doesn’t matter; their point of view doesn’t matter.
They are guilty and cannot prove their innocence. Because there’s no court, there’s no justice to rule anything.
So, what is a lynch mob? What can be described as witch-hunts in the 21st century?
2. As I mentioned yesterday, movie and theatre industry in general and their attitude towards these accusations. If Kevin Spacey is guilty of the accusation thrown at him, I find it impossible to believe they didn’t know. I find it impossible to believe they instantly believe the accusation without a second thought and instantly take matters to basically elimininate Kevin Spacey from their ranks. Netflix suspends production of House of Cards, The Old Vic made a rather unconvincing official statement about the alleged incident.
The Old Vic would like to respond to recent media reports by making it clear that we are deeply dismayed to hear the allegations levied against Kevin Spacey, who was Artistic Director from 2004–2015.
Inappropriate behaviour by anyone working at The Old Vic is completely unacceptable. We aim to foster a safe and supportive environment without prejudice, harassment or bullying of any sort, at any level, as set out in our joint statement with the theatre industry on 23 October. We want our employees to feel confident, valued and proud to be part of The Old Vic family. Any behaviour we become aware of which contravenes these goals will not be tolerated.
If you have been connected with The Old Vic or in our employment and feel you have a complaint that you were unable to raise, please contact us on email@example.com. Any experience shared will be treated in the utmost confidence and with sensitivity. We have appointed external advisors to help us deal with any information received.
People in social media want House of Cards to continue its production without Kevin Spacey with Robin Wright in the lead role. Interesting proposal that exonorates everyone else. Because his colleagues didn’t know, am I right? His behaviour went unnoticed for the half a decade they worked together. Yes? What? No?
If Kevin Spacey is guilty by default then the whole industry is guilty as well.
That at least is my very humble opinion.
Rosie O’ Donnell attacked Kevin Spacey on twitter for some weird (IMO) reason.
I also didn’t know hitting on «many, many, many men» is a crime.
My apologies, but I also think the LGBT community is angry at him for not coming out sooner so he could be the community’s spokesperson when he was at the high of his career? And now, it’s the right time for the community to take its revenge.
And I wonder, say he had come out when he won his second Academy Award for American Beauty (shut up, Hollywood didn’t know about him being a creepy gay man hitting on many, many, many men back then). How that would make the allegations against him any better now?
No I’m not confused. I see hypocrisy left, centre and right.
I could link to tweets and articles, but I’ve read most of those before I’ve attempted to sleep and didn’t keep them. Truth be told, I don’t care enough to go searching again….
PS. The presumption of innocence is still a thing.